It's been a long time since I've blogged. I can't believe it's been 7 months! I've been micro-blogging; i.e. daily Facebook status updates.
I've clearly been a bit busy with William since he was born on April 6, but not blogging since November! Wow. I've been struggling with the 'self-importance' of blogging. Who cares? Who gives a **** what I have to say? And do I really want everyone knowing my inner most thoughts (I've blogged about that before!)
Anyway, today I have pushed all that aside. I am compelled to write as I embark on a new chapter of my life!
After Friday, I will be a full-time mom. A 'stay-at-home' mom. Call it what you will. Job-less.
I resigned from HP last week. It's a company that I love. Someone once said I was so "corporate" and to me that was a compliment! But I'm leaving. I've worked with just great, talented, nice people for many years; Anna, Christina, Emily, Stephanie, Mike, Jane, Jean, Gary, Mary, Dana, Shelby, Ann, Jennifer...
But I was reminded today why I'm doing this. As someone said to me this afternoon, "as modern career women, our generation has been told we can have it all. We can have a great education, we can have a great job and be ambitious and we can do all that while having a child."
To many that is the definition of "all." But for me, I don't want that. For me, having it all is David, William, a house I love, living in a location I love and being happy. If I have less money in my wallet, that's okay. If I have to take the train places to economize on gas and parking fees, that's okay. If I have to decline certain invitations to concerts or say no to fancy dinners, that's okay too.
I'll miss the thrill of an acquisition announcement, the banter of the media relations team and even the exhaustion after a major crisis. I'll no longer have the feeling of pure disbelief when I am sat in the HP boardroom with none other than Mark Hurd, but despite that, I will have to remind myself that I do have it all.